Holidays are almost over...

I am really not looking forward to the re-opening of school...cause of some reasons but at the same time i do want to go to school i do want to see my friends.I feel stupid and helpless cause i wasted my whole holiday juz sitting infront of the com watching dramas...and believe me thats not a good feeling.PSLE is next year and to tell u the truth i rather go tuitions than studying.I'm juz not used to it.Since young till now i have never studied normally other than 1-2 weeks before the exam.I rely on tuition everytime and usually it works but PSLE is a BIG exam;deciding the next 4 years of my life.I cannot juz sit still and stare at books.I am restless.I will force myself.Really.