Overseas!

Haha at the airport using the free internet at the stations! Waiting for my flight to Bali! YAY awesome food and a beautiful villa awaits me! I love going overseas a lot, the lanuages, culture, environment there is just brilliant! Especially foooooodXD So excited cos it's my first time going there but yet feel a bit reluctant just like my brother cos it's only 10 days away from the end of the holidays and I practically did nothing. So much things to do so little time~  Actually no I was just busy watching RUNNING MAN<3 Now there are no more episodes left till a few days later! Haiz...k going off now byes^^

Happy? More like contented.

Today, I had 3 exams: chem, math, and geog. I've got to say they went pretty well:) I am actually really proud of myself not only because I could ans most of the question, but that I actually worked really hard for these exams. I studied a lot and realsied that studying isn't actually that boring. The reason why we think subjects are boring, in my opinion is because either 1) The teacher makes it so boring u don't even want to listen 2) You never really stopped to appreciate what the subject was about, which means u were only focusing on memorising and forcing stuff in ur brain. That doesn't work sadly. U must actually be very focused amd embrace the subject, telling urself u like it. HAHA sounds weird and funny but it helps:)I'm that kind of person that does not really have a deep interest for anything and keep a cold attitude but once I actually seriously sit down and study the subject, I will realise the gd points in the sub and actually start to like it though I will complain a lot. U know how all old ppl or adults say to cherish the time we are studying? I look back in my not so long life and realise that it is nostalgic. Studying is torturous at the point of time but after u have overcome the assessment or level, I have realised that the complaining and al was pretty fun like suffering with my batchmates, complaining to each other. It was tough, but fun. It helped me grow as a person:) Enjoy the pain;)

Facebook

Don't u think facebook is pathetic? Before u defend it, hear me out. Just to make it clear, I go to facebook at least once a day, and it becomes a habit. But ask urself, without it can u survive, without it what major thing would happen? The ans is nothing much. Without it life goes on. Yes, it helps as a communication tool for lots of stuff but it also wastes a lot of our time, where we see photos, update statuses and look at other's one. In reality, why do u care what they do? And vice versa why should ppl care what u do? U hear ppl complaining about so much stuff on it, and I always think: If u have the time to tell everyone about what ur not happy with, u might as well take that time to go do something. GO! My father once said to me," If u have spent half of the time u spent on facebook, just half, u would have topped the class!" I think it makes sense, because I know myself. If I do not use it, I would probaly do better, maybe not top the class but do better. I know it's difficult to break the habit, but I will try my best because it does me more harm then good. I will check for important updates though.A quote before signing off:‎'One of the great uses of Facebook n twitter on the day of judgement will be to show that our lack of prayer was not due to lack of time'

Am I living?

Based on my previous post, I do realise something. I feel that I have never lived. All I do is wake up, eat, go to school, watch tv, check fb, do hw, bathe, sleep. Does that sound like a life to u? Cos too me it's this feeling like ur worthless. I hate myself for that,it's like I'm sick and tired of this kind of life. Based on a speaker, this is because we were born to have this feeling in us, this emptiness, that can only be filled when we're with God. That's true. Only when I'm with God, whether in church or in prayers or when His in my ears an i confidently said I have lived. Only then am I truly human.

2012

I'm really late with this post so I'll set some new year resolutions which I probaly would not fulfil! Anyways, here they are:
1) I will lose weight
2)I will learn the guitar
3) I will grow closer to God
4) I will do well in school aiming for a GPA of 3.7
5) I will stop being a lazy pig and procrastinate
6) I will do sports
7) I will not hate myself
I do hate myself because I have this emptiness inside of me, no matter what I do,it just temporarily makes me forget it, but when everything stops, it comes back and I hate myself all over again. It shows me that I have wasted my life doing useless stuff. ‎'Babies get hungry therefore there must be such thing as food. Dogs like to swim therefore there must be such thing as water. Humans have sexual desire therefore there much be such thing as sex. And if I find in myself a desire that cannot satisfy. The most probable explanation is that I was made for another world'

Camp!!

I came back from camp on the 10th and I had no internet connection there which I think is great! Gives me time and space so that I can fully concentrate on God!I'm just gonna update on a few stuff that happened during the camp(or maybe one):
The campers there were split into 6 groups--love,peace,life,light,faith and last but not least my group, TRUTH!!!We also had 1 leader and 2 assistant leader. My leader was a super nice guy but he had to go back home because he was not feeling well on the first night:( So one of my team members, took over being the leader. Now this guy, is also super nice and added on he's super high and enthu! Let's just name him N. He was really very crazy and funny during games and other activites, so when I found out he was the uncle of my very good friend, and that he was the one who had depression, it really shocked me! Like really shocked me and I was also devastated.It's because he is in the same school as me, I mean somewhat my future school, haiz...it's confusing. I think that he had depression because of that school, it being too competitive and tiring perhaps. I checked with my good friend and she confirmed it. Being in the same school as him I feel so sad, and I don't even know where the sadness comes from. Maybe it's cos he's such a nice, kind, fun and enthu person and imagining him as a depressed person just makes my heart break. I just can't imagine it. I feel that it is somehow my fault because I am related to the
school. I m beginning to doubt whether I can take the pressure from the school. I don't know whether it's gonna be good for me, I mean someone as cheerful as him can be so stressed to the point of depression. Can I pull through? Dear heavenly father, please help me, help me alleviate these thoughts and sadness.In Jesus most precious name, I pray. Amen.

Camp!

Tomorrow going to church youth camp in malaysia. It's a camp only for teens which means no adults! I remembered enjoying it last yr so hope this yr is fun too! They are ppl who did no go last yr that are going now. They're my age! Although I think that'll be cool but I think it'll be kinda tiring to go everywhere as a group! Many of those who went last yr are not coming this yr:( I just want to have fun there, rediscover and reevaluate myself and also to learn more bout God! I hope everyone whether in Sg or camp will stay safe! I'll miss my home, parents, brother and maid!Hope they miss me tooXD Nah jk hope they dun miss me too much! Signing off from Singapore!xoxo