Am I living?

Based on my previous post, I do realise something. I feel that I have never lived. All I do is wake up, eat, go to school, watch tv, check fb, do hw, bathe, sleep. Does that sound like a life to u? Cos too me it's this feeling like ur worthless. I hate myself for that,it's like I'm sick and tired of this kind of life. Based on a speaker, this is because we were born to have this feeling in us, this emptiness, that can only be filled when we're with God. That's true. Only when I'm with God, whether in church or in prayers or when His in my ears an i confidently said I have lived. Only then am I truly human.