2012

I'm really late with this post so I'll set some new year resolutions which I probaly would not fulfil! Anyways, here they are:
1) I will lose weight
2)I will learn the guitar
3) I will grow closer to God
4) I will do well in school aiming for a GPA of 3.7
5) I will stop being a lazy pig and procrastinate
6) I will do sports
7) I will not hate myself
I do hate myself because I have this emptiness inside of me, no matter what I do,it just temporarily makes me forget it, but when everything stops, it comes back and I hate myself all over again. It shows me that I have wasted my life doing useless stuff. ‎'Babies get hungry therefore there must be such thing as food. Dogs like to swim therefore there must be such thing as water. Humans have sexual desire therefore there much be such thing as sex. And if I find in myself a desire that cannot satisfy. The most probable explanation is that I was made for another world'