I act as if i don't care
about grades or life
or friends.

But no.
I am selfish.
I want everything
to go as I want.

I go around telling people
even those who hurt themself
that life is okay.
And that we should not care too much.
I mean every word.


But sometimes,
I just want to shine.
Do well
with my own efforts.

I want to manage myself
manage time
manage life
and get the grades I deserve

In truth,
I have never worked hard.
I have never tried my best.
I just want to try
and see what I get.

Wish me the best:D

It's actually kinda comforting to know that i can pour out my feelings by typing in this blog. Since, ur not really commercialised or whatever, it's kinda this private and special bond. Sharing my fellings with not only u but also God.For He will always be there for me.

I don't know what I am doing anymore.

I don't know what I am doing anymore
playing around
never getting a thing done.

I hate myself for that.
I go to school everyday
making jokes
laugh and play

But in reality
I'm not that happy.
I watch dramas.
I fool around.
I waste my time.

My life's being dwindled away.

Why can't I seem to discipline myself?
Why can't I be tame
like the others.

I want to study
I really do
I wish someone can help me.

I want everything to go back,
when I was IN CHARGE
when I chose what I wanted to do
Yes, it's in the past tense.

I miss myself.